Darknessbeforedawn

There’s an old saying that goes like this; “It’s always darkest before the dawn”.   That saying can mean different things to different people. You may take it literally as in it’s really darkest just before dawn breaks.  While that may or may not be true what most people take it to mean is that it always gets worse before it gets better. You will see the darkest hours of your life right before the light breaks through, bringing with it relief from what is troubling you.

Your troubles can be anything really.  They may be concerning your family or relationships, your health, your job or your finances.  For us it’s been serious financial difficulties for a number of years.  We’ve been through the proverbial wringer.  We’ve been to hell and back and made a number of unwelcome return trips there.  Each one of those trips we went kicking and screaming like a child throwing a temper tantrum.  I feel like there’s a revolving door there with our name on it and I can’t close the door.  I want so desperately to permanently brick the wall up that the door is located on but the brick and mortar has evaded me, time and time again.

We didn’t intend for things to be this difficult.  I doubt anyone ever does.  We always thought that things will get better next week, next month, next year. Sometimes they did but the reprieve was usually temporary.  In the business we are in it’s feast or famine but there’s never really a feast part because you are constantly playing catch up from the famine part.

We’ve had some help here and there over the years and we are very thankful and grateful for every bit of that help from every single person that gave it.  We’re in a situation now where things are extremely difficult.  We’ve tried very, very hard to work that situation out for ourselves but it hasn’t happened yet.  I’m not really sure what will happen if it doesn’t get worked out.  It’s a scary feeling for sure as we’ve traveled down that road before.  I had hoped we were done going down that all too familiar road.

For now though I’ve done what I learned only in recent years to do and that’s to give it over to God.  I’ve prayed to Him in good times and in bad.  I’ve prayed to Him for miracles, big and small.  I’ve prayed to Him for guidance in every area of my life and in every situation.  Sometimes I didn’t get the answer I was looking for and sometimes I didn’t get an answer at all.  I believe the times I didn’t get an answer was because He was waiting to bless me with something different or better.

When God delivered the idea of what The Micah Principle is to me it was very clear and concise.  He told me that The Micah Principle means “Though I fall I will rise again”.  It means that if you fall down in life you get back up again.  You MUST get back up, no matter what.  When you don’t get back up you’re done, just done for good.  I don’t want to be done for good until I’m dead and I’m not ready for that to happen yet, either.  I’m not done fighting this current battle.  I still have faith it WILL work out for us in a favorable manner.  I have faith, too, that we will be able to close that revolving door to hell and finally throw away the key and brick that wall up.  I have faith that the darkness before dawn will bring us the most amazing, wonderful salvation of light that I’ve been praying for.  I have faith that it will.  I have faith.  I. HAVE. FAITH.