I Wish

I had a little revelation recently about how I define myself. This light bulb that went off over my head came after I had left church.  I talked to the pastor about The Micah Principle and explained to him what it was, how it came about through divine inspiration and what I wanted it to be.  In my explanation I implied that I had always wanted to be a writer and The Micah Principle was helping me to get there. I left church that morning with a good feeling inside me.

As I was driving home I thought about the conversation I had with the pastor and a friend of mine who was there also.  I have a tendency to re-enact conversations and encounters in my head.  I do the same thing for those that haven’t occurred yet; kind of like a “practice run” of what I want to say and how I want things to go. I’ve done this for as long as I can remember. Sometimes I say these things quietly to myself and other people hear me.  My family is used to it but other people probably think I’m nuts.  I’m sure my neighbors wonder what I’m saying while I’m mowing the grass because I’m usually louder with the practice run speeches then.

The revelation I had came as I was getting ready to turn the corner at the stop light.  I was saying to myself in my head “I wish I was a writer.  I always wanted to be one”.  As I said those two sentences silently something clicked in my brain.  I thought of what the man says whose teachings I’ve been following this year about positive thinking.  He says that if you want something then make a decision, write it on a  piece of paper and read it as often as you can.  Just write what you want, read it and believe it.  He also says that if you read a lie often enough it becomes the truth.  It works both ways. I decided right at that moment when I was turning the corner that I was going to stop saying “I wish I was a writer” and instead say “I am a writer”.  I was going to stop wishing for something and instead put into action what I wanted.  The start of that action was to declare that I am something instead of wishing I was something.

I told my daughter about this little light bulb moment when I got home.  I told her “You know how they say you are what you eat?  Well, you are what you speak”.  I think there’s a book by this name but that’s not where I heard the phrase. It just popped into my head when I was talking to my daughter.  Speak negative things about yourself and you will end up being those things.  Speak positive things about yourself instead and you will become that.  Speak of what you want like it’s already happened and remember to give your thanks and gratitude for them.

So, that was my little revelation.  I decided to replace “I wish” with “I am”.   And what better time to realize that then when I was getting ready to turn the corner on the road?  I think turning the corner was the most appropriate time of all to realize what I am.