In the years of my borderline atheism I did not believe in the existence of your “spiritual cup” I didn’t really believe there was anyone there to fill that cup up with anything so how could there even be a cup? It’s been over six years since the night I found out there was someone there and that there certainly was such a thing as a spiritual cup. It absolutely DOES exist.
Going through most of my adult years as a borderline atheist I always felt there was something missing from my life. I was never happy or satisfied with anything. I felt like I was missing something important but I didn’t know what it was or how to get what was missing. Because I was a borderline atheist it never occurred to me that what was missing in my life was faith, spirituality and the belief in God. It’s funny in a way how the answer can be right in front of your face all along but you never see it. Sometimes you have to hit your rockbottom before you find your answer. That’s what happened to me.
After that night I joined a church and attended regularly. I missed some weeks but I would eventually make my way back. I always felt guilty though when I didn’t go and felt the need to give an excuse for my absence. I felt like I was, for lack of a better phrase, committing a sin if I didn’t go to the brick and mortar building every week. Over time it dawned on me that it wasn’t true.
As time went by I learned how to fill my own spiritual cup. I don’t mean that I myself was what was filling the cup. I mean that I learned to fill my cup through other outlets besides the brick and mortar building. In essence I am a more deeply spiritual person than I was when I first started out six years ago. I’ve been on this amazing, enlightening journey where I discovered who I was, where I came from and where I’m going. I never knew the answers to those questions before that night six years ago.
During that journey I discovered that faith, spirituality and belief in God lives internally, inside of you, and not externally. You can show up at that brick and mortar building religiously every week but if you don’t have the belief inside yourself I don’t think it’s going to do you much good. If the belief isn’t there then I think your appearance is just that……an appearance. You have to have it IN your heart.
I do have that belief in my heart and throughout every fiber in my being. It grows stronger and deeper every day. I say prayers to God every day, I thank God for things in my life every day and I talk to God every day. I also say prayers to angels, including my own guardian angel. These are things I will continue to do till my last day on this earth. I can do these things at home, in the car, outside, in a store or wherever I choose to do them. They are not restricted to a brick and mortar building on Sunday.
The point here is that I don’t think it matters so much where you fill your spiritual cup, but that you DO fill it. Fill it up every second of every day. Don’t let it run dry. Most importantly though, don’t deny the existence of your spiritual cup. You do have one, just as every one else does, and it needs to be filled and replenished every day.